I was so apprehensive to call Lindsey last night after our conference call ended yesterday. But, I cannot go a day without talking to her. She sounded to quiet and defeated when we did hang up after the call, we could tell she was upset, but not raging mad.
She was quiet when she anwered, and I couldn't quite tell what she was thinking. They hadn't brought her flowers yet, so they went to look for them. They were yellow roses for her 5-month sobriety anniversary. Then she softly exclaimed, "oh there they are." She said they were beautiful and read the card aloud, "Congratulations on your 5-month anniversary of sobriety. We love you and we are proud of you, Mom and Matt." She was quiet for a minute and said, "I really want to be pissed at you, but I can't be." Has she had a small but powerful revelation that we are not trying to punish her but only helping her let go of the person she used to be and become and embrace the person she has so much potential to be? We can only hope.
She did have to laugh a little into the conversation - she can't take the flowers in her room because the vase is glass. And, the card was made out to Lindsey T. She said she will keep it forever.
Right now, she probably won't be going on the cruise, but that's okay. Hopefully she is building the foundation of a life that will keep her around for a very long time, and we will have many years to take vacations in.
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